You just gotta love the whole hcg diet thing! Since I started 3 DAYS AGO, I have lost 9.8 pounds, any side effects? Just waking up with a dull headache both days.
My legal council (the Voices inside my head) are reminding me that this is a temporary "whoosh", and won't keep up at this pace (bummer). But even a .5 or 1 lb loss would be most welcome.
During week 1, the losses are pretty big pound wise, during week 2 is when all this fat is going to start shifting around, and I will start seeing inches disappear. Week 3 is a mixture of both pounds and inches (hence the name of Dr. Simeons' research).
I am not sure about how long I will be doing hcg for the first round. Part of me wants to go a full 90 days, but my head is telling me to get off 50 lbs, go P3 for 3 weeks, and dive back in (maybe with 3 weeks of P4).
Here's what I want: I want to be healthy. I don't want to be morbidly obese anymore. I have 2 small children to raise. I have a wonderful husband that I want to grow old with. I want to do all the wonderful things that life has to offer.
I have to look at my fat as a cancer. If I had cancer, I would do anything and everything to fight it, right? Food is my cancer. The problem is that you can cut out cancer, you can't cut out food. A huge portion of using the hcg is not just to lose weight (bonus), but to change my relationship with food. Food is NOT my friend. Food is my enemy. I can no longer live to eat, but must instead eat only to live.
As I remain on the VLCD, my body is learning to get energy from fats, and not store away abnormally, but to use the excess for energy. Once I have exhausted the abnormal fat, then my body will continue to use what I eat to be used for energy, as long as I stay away from the excesses. Carbohydrates in grain/pseudo grain form just stores away in my already stretched abnormal fat cells, so grain/pseudo grain carbs are a thing of the past. Along with refined sugars, which have no food value of any sort. Even the energy that sugar supplies is short and too much of a spike, and totally not worth it. There are plenty of ways to get an energy boost. Fruit, nuts (not legumes), veggies and proteins.
I have been really lucky, since I had cut out soda years ago, so that's a monkey that I don't carry. Prior to starting hcg, I cut down/out most carbs in my diet. In fact, the Colonel was shocked when we went to a restaurant and I ordered steak with a side of ribs, and had a double portion of veggies instead of a starch, and passed on the bread/croutons.
My last loading meal was at Hometown Buffet, and I had a huge salad with tons of dressing, beets, eggs, bacon, and for my crunch I added sunflower seeds, no croutons. Then I went to the main courses and had a plateful of really fatty pork ribs and one, count it, one roll, which I savored and said my goodbyes to.
Breads/sugars are just nails in my coffin. Mortality is very real to me. I have clogged arteries and hypertension. Why? Because I have been killing myself with a fork, a slow and steady suicide. I will be 45 in 3 months, and I want to be out of the 300's and into the solid 200's (below 250 would be most excellent). Before the year is out, I will be in the 100's. 150 is supposed to be "ideal" but I will take 175 with relish and hold it there.
It's a whole life change. All my heart and soul are in this. I need this. I don't want to have a heart attack. I don't want to have a stroke. I don't want to be fat. This goes against everything I have ever done in my whole life. A complete 180 degree turn about. I must become a whole different person. One who thinks differently, one who acts differently, one who reacts differently. A total transformation.