Wednesday, June 1, 2011

How many times can you start over?

I guess the answer is:  As many as you need!
For some reason, I stay fat.  Do I want to be fat?  That is a loaded question.  I want what the skinny people have.  The clothes, the look, the ability to fit into booths and movie theater seats.  But, the problem is I want my food too.
Something has to give, right?  If I continue as I am, I will stay fat.  If I change, there is no guarantee that I will be thin, or even not as fat.
Exercise is a real problem for me too.  Not that I can't, I can.  But, finding the time to do it.  I don't like exercising in front of people, not even my husband or kids.  Even if I could, I can't do gyms (see reason one).  I keep trying to get up earlier.  But, manage to find a way to stay in bed.
Boy, I am just Excuses Ellie, aren't I.
I need a plan, and when I come up with one, I'll let you know!

Wednesday, January 26, 2011


Here's what I know.  Weight doesn't just come off.  You actually have to eat right and exercise (BOO!!). 

I weighed myself this morning and I am at 305.8 lbs!  Crazy!

This is 20 time for me.  20 jumping jacks (OK, 15, but my 3 yo was banging and yelling at the door).  20 sit ups and 20 push ups.  I will stick with this until I get stronger.  I am thinking about doing this a couple times a day (maybe 3?).

Now, to diet (not an evil word, it means the food you eat).  I would like to start juicing.  I am going to start off with carrot and celery.  Reduce the amount of bread type food (bread, tortillas, chips, etc).  Throw in plenty of protein.

Changing thinking and attitude is the hardest.  But, this year, not only being prepared for any emergency also includes being fit.  You can't fight or be in flight if you can't move!

I am hoping to get down to 300 by this time next week.  That's 5.8 lbs.  A good start.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

It's New Year's Day!

My house is a mess. Christmas tree is staring at me, even it wants to be put away! My kids are not behaving. You'd think that they would want to have more peace for 2011. You know, not get in trouble as much? Well, expecting 2 toddlers to make a New Year's Resolution is a bit too much! But what about me?

I don't like to make them, resolutions I mean. I have such a hard time keeping them.

There are changes on the horizon, however.  The other day I weighed in at 301 lbs (again!).  I had made it to 279, and was thrilled, but have shot that out of the water.  Being that it's out of the water (not even water under a bridge, to come out on the other side), I don't have to worry about what was anymore.

Now, it's time to look ahead.  Those wonderful fun things that I want to do.  I am not starting well, not with diet or exercise, but with my attitude.  I am irritated by my kids!!! 

I want to be left alone, not forever, but for right now.  The day started at 6 am with a crying baby, who had to go around waking up his older brother.  So now I have two babies, who want attention.  All I wanted to do was drink my coffee, watch Torchwood, then enjoy the parade. 

Looking logically at this, and in the frame of the Father's eyes, would be to give this time to the kids.  Torchwood is on Netflix, and will be on for a while, so I am not missing anything.  Coffee is poured and being drunk, so I am not missing anything.  I am here typing and not watching the parade, so I am not missing anything there, either.

Time to love the kids.